My own little bunny rabbit. I will name him George, and I will hug him and pet him and squeeze him... Bugs Bunny - The Abominable Snow Rabbit (1961)

Life is not all bad in Autumn. There's a freshness in the biting air, and fun to be had kicking gold and red crunchy leaves that someone has neatly piled up.

Even months on end buried in grief
Our easy lifetimes which have to end
With the coming of your dead friend

Of deaths and endings. This Friday is the sixth anniversary of my meeting WPKAW. Just over two weeks later is the first anniversary of her death. WPKAW's inquest hearing was on Monday morning.

Tarnished beads on tapestries
Kept in satin boxes are
Reflections of love's memories

AXA and I had a conversation at the weekend about love and stuff.

Minor Midget turned 11. We partied.

Winter becomes Spring.

I look at you and you look at me and
deep in our hearts know it
That you weren't much of a muse,
but then I weren't much of a poet

The weeks are gliding past, time unnoticed.

She's panicked and gone to ground. It was all too complicated and scary for her. She hates people knowing her business and gossiping about her. She's got stuff she needs to deal with, can't handle anxiety well and this was the first time she'd got seriously involved since her nearly-death four (five?) years ago. Yes, it had only been a week, but it's serious enough in her head already to count.

This was my line of thinking in the three minutes on Sunday evening when she sent an OMG!! as she realized that the midgets were able to see some of the texts she'd sent me over the weekend. But she reassured me that "Yes, am v ok :)" and wanted to know if they'd asked who she was.

Major Midget was pleased with The Package.
Especially, when she saw the inscription. So thanks.

Major Midget broke several adult hearts tonight.

You're as brittle as the wishbone of a bird
(Lie down here & be my girl)
We've been scribbled in the margins of a story
That's patently absurd
(Lie down here & be my girl)

The days of February from 14 to 24. Including, but not limited to, angst, hand wringing, opera, pacing, pausing, running away, planning, dithering, more opera, more angst, paralysis, horrible coincidence, nerves and food poisoning.

I caught her being unfaithful to my dad. With another woman. It explained a lot.

I finished reading The White Tiger this afternoon. That is the last book I intend to read to WPKAW.

I am out with AXA at the opera this evening. We are going for dinner afterwards.  I do not expect to come home.

Update [2009-2-21 11:44:18 by Dr H0ffm4n]: The Grant of Letters of Administration was waiting for me when I got home last night. I am now legally the executor of WPKAW's estate.

I'm gonna be the man who's lonely without you
When I'm dreaming yes I know I'm gonna dream
Dream about the time when I'm with you.

I dreamt about WPKAW last night. She was sitting on the edge of the bed. She turned her back on me, wouldn't talk to me and wouldn't explain what was wrong. I knew it was over. All my questions were just met with silence.